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I hate my job, please advice?? Posted by: Starving Student on July 18, 19101 at 00:02:09: In Response to: I Hate my job posted by Cindy on November 08, 1998 at 00:23:33: I hate my internship. I'm 19 years old and I'm told nearly every day "you have to start somewhere." My personal pet peeve. They only say that because I look so young for my age. They don't know that I have been working in offices since I was 16 or that I quit highschool because I couldn't afford to live on food service wage, that I pay most of my own bills. But because I live in this rich, white suburb people automatically assume that I'm working so I can party in Key West on spring break. And I do admit, I'm starting to live up to my stereotype. I'm becoming irresponsible and careless. I have a hard time focusing and I'm sleep deprived. I can't seperate emotional issues into their own private times. I'm making tons of mistakes. I was never, ever good at clerical. I'm terrible at organization and details, but because I am a woman, I'm young, and I cannot do any hard physical activity, I'm *always* the secretary, a job I am just completley unsuited for. I like the people I work with (assuming that they are not gossiping about me, but that would be niave and idealistic). But I absolutely hate what I do. I force my mind to try and run as smoothly and thoughtlessly as possible to focus on some menial, repetative task for 8 hours. I try not to think because all my thoughts are depressing. I try, but I can never succeed. When that task is finally over I feel disoriented and tired and I inevitably make more mistakes on the next assignment. My boss believes I am incredibly intelligent for my age. She gives me a lot of credit. I feel guilty for failing her, because I'm also incredibly absent-minded. Very forgetful. Hell, I can barely do simple addition after 8 hours of file, file, file. I can feel my brain cells eroding from lack of use, inspiration, creativity. Then I feel like I can't do anything right. My self-esteem plummets and I make even worse mistakes the next day. And all this for only $9 an hour. Fortunately, my mom, who I expected would have... (truncated) Follow Ups Back to Kickin Brass WWWBoard created by Matt Wright and can be found at Matt's Script Archive WWWBoard 2.0a2b updated by James Kent 05/08/98. |